I guess I'm going to start blogging again because for a long time I had Zap to rant to and didn't really see the point anymore. I guess I have a need to expell my mundane ramblings.
Also, Its fine to be honest here because I've blogged so inconsistantly that most likely this has fallen off the radar.
Firstly, my new job is pretty good. The people who I work with are just so lovely. There is a girl with blue hair and bad tattoo's that talks like a baby and dots her 'i's' with hearts. She makes me want to kill myself. I found over the course of my last job I lost a great deal of confidence, now when I make a mistake I feel like its the end of the world and I have to adjust, step back, calm down. The girls who I work the counter with are seemingly the most lovely girls. The guard is tall and a bit of a babe. He has a weird sort of auror about him that makes me feel uncomfortable or intimidated, and for some reason, I lie my ass off when I'm talking to him about the most random things without even realising it. I used to do that to Tim, not a good sign.
Secondly, since everything in my life has shifted to the left, I've stopped eating meat. Meat is not really something that I enjoy and so far its been a week and two days. If I get too ill, which is what happened last time, I suppose I will give it up, but for now the trial is going alright. With the stress of the last week I have been smoking nearly a pack a day, that is going to be a fucking bitch to quit, since I worked so hard to get to the point of rarely smoking that I was at.
Thirdly, my brother is moving in with me next week if all goes well with his new job and Ben is moving out. My brother and I have never really gotten along very well, but I really want this to work out. I've always felt pretty unsafe in that house and it would be comforting to me to have him there. He also has a car, which I plan to borrow. He decided to try being vego as well so possibly the food bill is going to be alright to split and I won't have to cook for myself.
I've decided to try going back home tonight. I've realised its not the end of the world but still, being in that house with all those memories and sleeping in that same bed is pretty hard for me. It may result in a return to my parents house, but the 2 hour train ride to work, making for a four hour round trip is not very appealing to me. And thanks to the incompetency of QR I have been late to work twice.
The uni application is being sent tomorrow.
