Some bittersweet victories.

We got a house, on the second try this time. R made it out like it was the hardest thing to do ever and we got a house in Paddington on the second try… without a hundred points of ID, without 3 tenants ..maybe just with Zaps win. I had to sell my car to repay the debts as I take out yet another loan from my parents. Which is going to be hard because this place isn’t exactly in a convenient location, we’re going to have it pretty tough money wise for the first month or so and then hopefully happier times will be had by all. After the break in, the things that have been bothering the hell out me lately that I can’t mention and all the fucking painful exhausting stuff that happened with R, Milton house isn’t exactly filled with the best of memories and I’m pretty happy to get out of there regardless of how nice it is. Paddington house is like Queenslander sitting in a baron field containing tumble weeds but will be filled with Zap and relations of Zap and Cash Warren so I feel like I’m in a pretty good place right now. Heh heh yeah. T* leaves next week, I’m starting to have nightmares about it. I worry that I will never see him again but it is what it is and what it will be, he’s leaving, the end. There’s nothing I can do about it except for take in what it was and hope to find someone like that to keep if I cant keep him.

My ma lent my horse to a woman to ride. Everything was going well until the woman brought him back the other day and said he was un-ridable. I already knew this but hoped I could hold off the inevitable by keeping him peachy happy untouched in a field, until mother leant him to someone they confirmed he could not be ridden which leaves me with 3 options: 1)keep him as a paddock mate (but I can’t afford it and there’s no where to put him) 2) find someone to take him as a paddock friend or something or 3) put him down. I was completely fucking devastated. I had decided I would find somewhere to agist him and hold onto him even though I couldn’t afford it but it was a hundred earths better then option 3. Luckily though, his old owner rang and agreed to take him back to live in like 50 acres of leafy paddock. a bittersweet victory.

I don’t have a Count anymore.

*_*

The weekend was super good.

I went to see Narangba friends on the Friday night and word was round with the favorites so we were excitedly planning to booze. I hadn’t been at Hams place since the early 1900’s so it was kind of awkward to begin. I went on one of those awkward situation rants. Apparently though, no one noticed as my boobs were un expectedly on display.

Little cutie friend of Hams josh metal guy, Hams and I gave up waiting for long lost Tobes, Christi and Fanning and trecked plains across to the “Nang a tav” which is actually not all too far away. Got there purchased cigarettes and trecked right back at the promise of tobes FREE BOOZE! Drank lots. And lots.. and walked back again. This night was turning out like Lord of the rings but at last, we arrived at the water hole. Some teenage girls on crack or something were stirring up the manicly depressed looking employee at Red Rooster which only egged on the group of spastic boys I was with until hams fell over on the freshly mopped floor and we all got free pudding with the promise of not suing.

There was a lot of interpretive dancing until it was time for Tobes to get us all kicked out with his controversial screams of “West Ham United”. In retrospect it probably wasn’t that that was controversial as the force he used to slam the door as he proclaimed his love for his favorite soccer team that resulted in his ban for life. Fuck you, Chelsea dogs.

On the way back there were piggy back rides and hedging, which was all fun and games until “someone” hit their head on a fence. Tobes drank a lot of Tequila out of a tiny hat and was respectively throwing up around the corner for the remainder of the night. B yelled at me because she didn’t want to wait for a cab she wanted to go home NOW, so we brought microwavable macaroni cheese whilst being chatted up by acne ridden 13 year old boys that hang around the BP at 4 in the morning before walking across a swamp in the middle of empty suburbia back to B’s.

Not having a car makes for crappy. long. boring. train rides from far away lands. Some gay guy befriended me and all I remember was him saying "I'm strange... and gay.. oh man, I'm so gay" basically just that over and over again. he was the biggest queen. He was the king of queens. that's right.

I was irrationally mad when I got home. R was in the firing line, he is lucky he got out of the way. I met Joe to go Ed's and C's but when we got off the train we walked roughly an hour in the wrong direction. and then back again. Bunny Boy was at the party, 5 minutes of talking to him I realised I never wanted to see him again and deleted his number from my phone. I feel a bit cheated, he was such a waste of time.

Dusty gave Joe and I a lift in his nimbus to C's apartment to get high and leave for the time travel party.

The time travel party was besttimes. I was high as fuck hell when I got there though, it was incredibly exciting to see everyone. Zap and others and I went on a journey to go get more high-ing substances. I don't even remember what happened. I bumped into Rea and Snitch. I came back with no money and a GIGANTIC bottle of wine I got for FREE!

I have very little memories of the remainder... Geo and I stood in a hallway for a good 15 mins saying "Really... really... really". I asked PL if he wanted to come home with me and he's like "no. I can't get home from your house" "go home with Zap." Ouch.

a guilt ridden make out with some sexy guy happened. Climbed the tree and did not fall out. Rejected someone that was while hilarious, was terrible. "Can I kiss you." "Wahh!? NO." *awkward silence* *awkward silence* *awkward silence* "I'm sorry. theres no recovering from that" *walk away to leave them standing alone in the dark*

I remember sitting on the road with Lyn ... I don't know what doing. sitting.

On the train on the way to the party I was by myself and mega high so I saw these two grandma and grandpa and I though to myself " DEAR GOD I HAVE TO BEFRIEND THEM!" so..... I sat next to them and conversated the crap out of them. They got off at the next station and I looked around to see all the people within hearing distance just giggling to themselves. Crap. bad move.

Zap was asleep on Burneys bed with some guy dressed in toga curled up in a ball at his feet. I dragged him up into the cold roady wilderness to hail a cab that got home at perfect timing. I snuggled the crap out him.

The KFC adventure the next day was fucking brilliant. "WHY DON't YOU WANT A SUNDAE!"

T* came over. we played blokus, went to zombie walk, tried to reenact the KFC adventure of the morn and semi watched a movie.

Spent the rest of the day watching the crappest movies ever made by dicks. Crash and Downfall.

Cash Warren.

tales of sorts

Well,

The weekend for the most part was excellent. As me and Zap have already discussed we won doing fail things. PL got me again. I’m pretty sure I provoked it. He put me off. I apparently can’t string a sentence together in the presence of him. So, I tracked him down and was all like, I will not sleep with you for once, and I CAN hold a conversation with you. Apparently, neither of these things are true. As I walked in my front door with him, and introduced him to JR, JR says “Oh I’ve heard so much about you.” CRINGE. I have very little recollections of Burneys party. Theres a photo of me on Geo’s shoulders. I know there is photographic evidence, but I still doubt this happened.

Went shopping with a bunch of dudes on Saturday in the hopes of finding the perfect laptop with assistance of Geo. They were an hour late and were of little to no help. At least I was scatty so I didn’t really know what was going on and it was worth it when we found the tallest escalator in the worlddddddddddddddd.

Had big plans for the next night until it rained and everything went orange. Stung by its beauty we felt compelled to play BLOKUS until it was time to get incredibly expensive Mexican food that ended the night. Went for a beer trip the next day instead found a ping pong table and Teddys bearded roommate (whose a babe) and the hot French nurse who is but a boy. We all went to lunch.

Having Zap in the house is super fun.

bird war

So its been the first week at the new job. I'm really enjoying it so far. I went into a frick huge warehouse that was filled with stage props, basically, I went to fantasy land, among other places. I was walking around the car park for a few hours the other day trying to work out a more efficient plan, but I would have just looked like retard with a notepad retracing my steps. There was this big removal's truck in the middle of the car park, with all these young moving guys unpacking stuff.I wasn't looking and walked into a car and they all just turned and laughed at me so I retreated back to my office in plans to hide from them until they left. But then a lift broke down and I had to go unlock staircases in another building. So I walked past them and they were all snickering at me, but i was distracted by this bird that flew right into the window. I kept walking and unlocked the stairs, and it was still there on the way back. So I went to shoo it, but it didn't fly. It seems injured and had blood all over its face so I picked it up and it struggled free. So I chased it around until it got into a bush, so I dived into the bush and picked it up. It started screaming, and every other bird in Brisbane started screaming too. It was all out bird war. So I walked out of the bush and its the loudest noise ever and I look over and the group of boys were just staring at with their mouths open as I stood in a bush holding a struggling bird surrounded by a bird war. I let that fucker go and crawled away indignantly.

Boys, apparently don't take my shit like they used to. I had plans with BB for Sunday. I bailed. Had plans with Jse for Saturday. I bailed. Had plans with BB for Monday, cancelled. Had plans with Jse for last night, bailed. Had plans with Chris for today, cancelled. I blew jse off in a bad way last night, now he's not talking to me. BB just said, oh, yeah well, be a few months til next time you see me then.
I don't know why I am so determined to treat boys terribly, they used to put up with it, and now they just, don't.